Why does this always happen to me...

Almost 2 years ago, when I was just about to reach -50 on my weight loss journey...I got pregnant. I was very happy, and excited because I thought I could continue to lose weight while I was pregnant. 

And I could have....

But I failed.....

...failed miserably. 

Instead of losing weight I gained 15 pounds. I dropped that pretty quickly after Harmy was born, but then in my post pregnancy days of sloth and adjusting to 2 children, I gained 20 of it back. It took me a year to lose that again. I found my body had changed and the weight (which has always been slow to come off), was now clinging to me for dear life! 

But come off it did, and about a month ago I got back down to 264. I was once again approaching that -50 mark! Excitement began to mount. I increased my workouts to 5 days a week! I was eating healthy and losing 1-2 pounds a week! 

Then it happened. Yup. I got pregnant again. It wasn't unplanned, but since we've been trying for several months, I wasn't exactly expecting it either. But I REALLY wasn't expecting what came with it. My first 2 pregnancies were fairly easy. I would get nauseous but never threw up. 

Not so this time around. 

The upside to being sick all the time is that I didn't feel like eating anything. The down side is that I was usually too sick to work out, so probably didn't lose much fat during that time, and fat is what I really want to lose! But my weight has dropped to 259, and I am now sitting 4 pounds away from that -50 marker. It's not much to lose, but......

it's Christmastime.....and that means eating. 

Goodies are everywhere!!! And we've been baking for work and church. It's a dieters nightmare! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

.......

I have regained my composure. 

After I started to feel better I also noticed something else. When I ate sugar, or anything sweet, I got a horrible taste in my mouth and felt funny. I wish I could be more specific, but I'm not really sure how to describe it. Not nauseous or dizzy, but somewhere in between those 2. It happens when I eat certain carbs too. As a result, I am trying to eliminate sweeteners such as sugar, honey, maple syrup, etc. and cut down on processed carbs. 

You would think feeling this way would help me control my cravings for sweets, but it hasn't. I look at that cookie, and I tell mysef, "Marie....if you eat that cookie it will make you sick. You will terrible. Do NOT EAT THAT COOKIE!"......

Then I eat it. 

What is wrong with me?

This is what I am struggling with right now. Getting those sugar cravings under control, make sure I get enough water, and get a LOT of protein and vegetables in. I've been having serious cravings for meat, which isn't new; I always crave meat when pregnant. Unfortunately it's usually for bacon, hamburgers, and sausage. Really salty things. 

Please pray for me as I attempt to continue to lose weight while I am pregnant. Don't worry, it's doctor approved :-P I'm really that fat.