Who am I? As I get older I realize that the question of who I am is not so important as who am I becoming. Everyone is in a state of transition from the time we are born. We grow; physically, mentally, spiritually, socially....
Who I am now is not who I was 10 years ago, and I fully expect to change in 100 different ways should I be allowed to tarry here on earth for another 10 years. That is the nature of human life. It is drags on and goes way to fast! It is progressive, and yet it feels like it happens all at once!
One of the greatest struggles of my life has been my weight. It affects who I was, who I am, and part of becoming who I want to be is overcoming this struggle and getting it under control. My first daughter, who I call my MuffinHead, turned 1 the same year I turned 30. My knees had been hurting for a couple years, and weight related diabetes, cancer, and other weight issues are huge problems in my family.
Right before her first birthday in January, I weighed myself (along with a million or so other Americans), and I realized that unless I took steps to lose a considerable amount of weight, I would be close or over 400 lbs by the time I was 40, with serious health problems!I looked down the road of my life and didn't like what I saw. A woman so heavy she couldn't run with her children. A mom who couldn't go hiking or backpacking with her family. I saw a life I didn't want, and it scared me.
That’s when I decided I had to do something about it. Since then I have been making changes in my life, all working toward leading a healthier more disciplined lifestyle. It’s more than just changing my eating and exercise habits. It is also about taking better care of my family, house, and spiritual state. This blog is a record of my journey, and a catalog of my success and failures. Up until this time (June 2014) I have had more failures than successes in the weight loss department, but I have also given birth to 2 more beautiful babies. A girl (BabyDoll) and a boy (LittleMan).
I am now down 26 pounds from when I first started this blog. My goal right now is to get down to 250. That is what I weighed when I was married. My long term goal is 150. I'm not a tiny framed person, and I don't need to be a stick skinny model to feel good. That's not what this is about. Every body is different, but being this overweight certainly shows a lack of discipline and self control. I want to remedy those habits in my life and be healthy in order to an image to the world that is honoring to God and my husband.
